Satoshi (Left): Don't worry about it. Things have been so busy that you don't even know what to do anymore, huh?
Akira (Right): It'll be fine eventually, right? Sure you're almost all work and no sleep, but we understand that you're stressed out.
Voca (Middle): You guys, stop, you're making me feel stupid. ///
On most days I work from morning to night and occasionally don't get home until 11-12 at night. Despite loving work (I'm a cashier, but it's at a hardware retail store, so it's very active), getting to and from there is ridiculous because I don't have transportation other than the bus. It takes 2 hours to get to work and 2 hours to get home via transfer buses. And considering the cost of buses and working at near-minimum wage, that isn't much of a profit. (And transferring somewhere else to work won't make much difference since I'd still have to take the bus + college life starts soon, so I may have to stop working altogether to focus on academics anyway.) Sooooo.... it got to me a little yesterday. I'm really sorry about everything. I just felt it'd be better to leave completely rather than get frustrated with the several days/months of inconsistent visits. It'll all work out eventually.
I'm using new shaders and effects to boost my motivation of staying here. This is not NCHL2 Shader. I used HGSSAO and ExcellentShadow, as well as some other effects that came with NCHL, and then used GreenShader(SUNBACK) because NCHL revealed some undesirable mistakes in my attempts at making OCs. (In truth, the faces and bodies' skin colors don't match since the faces don't come with a texture, but I got as close as I could otherwise and thought it was fine. NCHL reveals the flaw, especially since the Ambients are not the same level.)
So yeah. Basically I'm trying. Really... really trying. I'm half-dead from working because on average I get only 5-6 hours a day of sleep now. 3 months from now that won't be the case since college will be starting, but right now it's just muh.