Can I Trust You With This...?

"It's become so delicate now... that I don't know how to take care of it anymore. I-It's been broken so many times... I've been betrayed and rejected by my family, my friends, my father - ...... _{my f-father...} This pain... I can't take it anymore... this fear... this loneliness... this hatred for myself for seemingly not being good enough to be wanted by those closest to me...

I want to be loved... I-I just want to be loved... but - I'm afraid of seeming selfish for longing for it... No matter how much I love people and take care of others, whenever I desire something for myself, I'm automatically considered selfish for it. Why...? Is it wrong to secretly long to be on the receiving end every now and then...? Or is this just a fear of mine, because I don't want to seem like a bad person...

I don't want to be alone, but I'm afraid of trusting people... I-I don't want to give my heart to someone, and then for them to eventually turn their back on me... just like everyone else... Why does love have to be so conditional...?

These feelings are so confusing... so terrifying... It makes me feel helplessly scared and not know what to do...

These feelings are consuming me... I - I can't. There's no way I would let myself trust anyone again... I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to be hated anymore, I just can't take it any longer...

But... I want to try again... I'm willing to try one more time... to give my heart to someone and pray that they will never do anything to hurt it... a-and that's why... I've chosen you to be given that chance... Can I trust you with this...? Can I trust you with my heart...? Will you please take care of it gently...?

Do I mean enough to you for you to stay by my side...? Am I at least worth that much...? Please... I-I promise I'll try to make you happy too - In any way I can, I promise you...

So please... don't go away..."


I love it when people show their vulnerable side. Thinking of people's vulnerabilities and insecurities is what gave me a burst of inspiration to make this. The sides of people that they are so afraid to show, ironically, are what makes them the most beautiful.

I hope you guys like it.